ketidakstabilan..


fuhh..
semua tak stabil..
ekonomi..
sosial..
jiwa..

hohohoho
ape lagi tak stable??
haih..
busan ke ek?
gi kelas busan..
rumah busan..
jalan2 busan coz xde duet..
tepon umah kuantan? ayh buzy..
so ape yg tak bsn?

mnde yg tak bosn..
jln2
makan
minom2..
rewang2..

soalnyeeeee!
where is the fulus??

hoho

last2 kt blog gak aku bising..
thanks blog!
naseb ekau ade..
if tak..
aku tak tau nk jerit kt mane!

coz if cte kt org len pon..
org len pon takkn phmm
sbb aku sndri tak phm pe kebende aku tgh lalui ni..
bosan+xde mood+senyum fake+tensen

ENTAH APE-APE
&
TIADA APA-APA

p/s: cepat r exam beh..aku nak cuti! aku just nk duk umah or gi keje rotiboy lagi..
i wanna stay occupied on somethng..oh! jgn srh aku occupied study..that will never be done !
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busan tahap dewa (o_0")...

aduii..busan gile..
aku dah tak tau nk tgk drama ape pulak..
waaaa..

TAIWAN SERIES
smilling pasta
it started with a kiss
why why love
devil besides you
invicible shan bao mei
frog prince

ENGLISH MOVIE
public enemy
the ugly truth
g-force
college trip
surrogate

ENGLISH SERIES
24hours
bones

currently aku streaming marmalade boy kt youtube..
tapinye cte die ca x besh jerh..x hensem hero die..hahahaha

list kt atas sme cte yg aku duk tgk spjg bulan ni la..haah..
mule2 tgk satu episode..
tbe2 tgk2 smbg22222 teros
byk sgt tgk cte smpai aku dah tak tau nk tgk pe..
bukan sme cte aku nk tgk sng nk cri..

adeyh..
BOSAN ARRR CAMNIIII!!!!

hmmphhh..marah tul aku
aku tak kire..
aku nk tgk gak series len!!

ape? dekat exam?
hoh!
soalnye..
aku takleyh rrrr
ngadap buku je spjg hari..
nk gi kelas..sgt malas..
duk umah bsn gak
nk kuar hujan..
herm..
bosan222222

p/s: x sbr nk cuti r cni..nk rewangggg!!!



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changes...


after that incidence..
being angry n really2 angry..
i learn to understand the situation better..
but then..
i know..
there is a big change..
i dun know what i thought from what had happen is correct or not..
i wanted to tell everything..
wanted to clarify..
but i'm afraid of everything..
afraid of loosing..
afraid of the reality..
afraid that i loose my trust..
afraid that he probably wont make anything to gain my trust..
afraid to be hate..
although..every reality i had foreseen it..
just i was so afraid to face it..
my ego just wont let me.

i was never the first..n will never be..
so its not a big deal for him..
but then..
that scares me the most..

the changes also include..
the feelings that i had..
slowly fading..
i dun wanna let go..
but i guess..
when the time comes..
letting go is better..
n i know i am more open up to others this time..

friends?
we never really started as friends or couples..
both were looking for someone..
im looking for starlight..
he was looking for a fren to console..
ended up this way..
will friendship be the best solution..??
perhaps after sometimes..
we can..
but ..

there is no relationship without trust..

with or without..both brings pain..

but then..
what should we do?

i guess..
i need to start a search for the next starlight..
but..
it will be damn hard..
coz..
to gain my trust ..
for more than friend..
it is just so hard..

i know that there will be a day i will find the one..

what i know..i want the best..

for the next two years..just enjoy my college life i guess..
=)

there are a lot of stars..
there can be many starlights for the whole life..
but only one will remain n be the sunshine of my life~

p/s: for now..im am deeply in LOVE with JIMMY LIN..=p
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the end of all presentations..


fuhh.. due minggu ni..buzy tol ngn presentation ape kebenda ntah..
today last..
METHADONE

hoho..
now ade 3 kuiz lagi kot..
adeyhh

BIOCHEMISTRY
ANTIMICROBIAL THERAPY
DOSAGE FORM I

adeyh..
final exam!!

2hb NOVEMBER 2009
(-_-")..malasnyeeeee

pastu CUTI!!! hooreyy!

p/s:
today i realize..why i can easily learn to love n then learn to forget in just in a short time..
coz..its not my first love(it took me years b4 i really am over him)..well first love is the best..but..he is just not the one for me..but his the first..which make a very big diff..hahaha
n today i learnt..that..someone yg dah pernh overcome first love die..can easily decide what they one..but someone that still hanging with their first love dun really know to make big decission..wahhahaha~


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the outcome of the gamble..


THE OUTCOME~


We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all

Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear Girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
No trouble stayin' occupied

Oh I ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need's another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because

'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause baby it's over
I swear Girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

You know that it's over when the burnin'
And the yearnin' inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it's better

Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear Girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over
'Cause it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin' seven
Don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
'Cause it's over
I swear Girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin' messages
Don't wanna know where you been
Baby 'cause it's over

p/s: u never know to make decision..even this painfull decision.. i need to say it to you..this time..its really over..im not turning back..thanks for all the memory..thanks for all the sympathy..i dun need it anymore..bye~

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the gamble, ive taken I


starlight...

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there
Just never spoken

I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know

Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
Just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know, just so you know

p/s: outcome of the gamble..
its over-jesse mc cartney or when you look me in the eyes-jonas brothers.
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untitled(0_-")


hoho..
ari nie..kelegaan sedikit..
coz..separuh dr esaiman n kuiz dah selesai..
isnin ni..last week..kami..bz ngn presentation n kuiz..
than leh rht dah..
BUT!!!
hoho..
final is just around the corner..
hahaa..
bajet risau..
pdhl otak duk pk nk rehat je..
ekeke=p

ade org kate..
aku dah mule cerie balik..
hahaha..
yakah?
r u sure?
jeng3x..

aku mmg CERIA!
bile mase aku tak cerie.??

hoho..
bz keje dowh..
srbt kuiz yg HANCUS..
srbt..
tapi!..aku OK je..
hahha..
just time2 cni..
x ske duk kt org ramai..
coz..i will get annoyed..
nt kesian org kene mrh..
hahahhaha..
sorry la if ade sape2 cube..
bergurau senda ngn aku..
aku nye respon sgt dingin..
haha..

tapi rini..terover happy lak..
smpai png kepale lak ha..
agaknye lepas tensen..
gi QB beli mknn byk2..
hahaha=o

fusyoooo!

so..aku normal la kan..
ade sdh, ade cerie, ade mrh, ade grm..
NORMAL LA NI!!!!
xkn nk sowh aku ni happy je selalu..
x adventure lnsung..
=p

tapi..
haha..

ade certain kate,..
aku dah lupe org sejak dah dpt DIE..
cop2222222!!!!
wei aku single OK!
single mingle lagi ni..
bile aku dpt DIE?? bile???
x pernah OK!
sile masuk dlm kepale masing2..
sejak bile lakkkkk aku berpunye n dipunyeeee?????

FYI
i am happy
BUT..
i am not in a special relationship!
n i dun forget people OK..
just
keje byk..
serabut tahu enggak..

makanya..
disini..
aku nk kate..


warghhh..ngantuk dah..

sbb tu entri xde title..
hahaha..

pdhl if ade title pon..
cam la title menarik aku letakk..
merepek je ade r..

ok dah ngntuk..

zZZZZzzzzZZzZzzz

tata..
mantok daaaaa~




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ohoiiiiiiiii!! =p


enth nape..
aku rase..
aku dah mule..
berhenti berharap..KOT
enth nape..
se empty..KOT
aku se aku dah mule bngkit semulaaaa.!!!
hiargghhh...!!
aku tak tau same ade ini positif atau negatif..(0_o")
tapi yg pasti..
aku dah x mengharap..KOT
dah mule tidak peduli..
dah..
MALAS
hahaha..
ape ni???
aku tak phmm..
adekah aku sudah.........
hahhaa..
phase 1 cam dah selesai..ngee
ni masuk phase di mane aku menggilai artis semula..
hahahahhahaha

kali ni aku suke
HERO
WHY2 LOVE and DEVIL BESIDES YOU

n aku gile jatuhhh222222 jutaaaa ulang22222 kali ngn HERO ni hahahaha

aku mahu dia!

aku dah pnt sdh2 kot..
hahhaha..

pesal proses die cam lebh krg same je ni..
predictable tul life aku negh!
ngeh3x..

now..aku nk tak tau nk kate..
aku tak sbr nk masuk phase baru atau tak..
coz aku cam tkut nk ulang balik phase 1 ..
phase pas gile artis..
ialah phase..
aku opened up balik..
which is..
aku dah fedup n MALAS..

x lrt laaaa..
cam roda tul hidup ni..ngeh3x..masuk phase 1.. se cam lmbt je gerak..
n geram je asek duk kt bwh

tpi now..aku dah mule se..
"movie, drama, makanan n aku.."
hahaha

n angan2 tak henti2 sal HERO DEVIL BESIDES YOU tu..
ngeh3x.=p

saye hanye mahu mimpi ini ditemani beliau!
gelimatttt22222 ayat..

tu lebih bahagie aku rase..
keh3x

saye mahu hua da (devil boy)
hua yan (10th guy) boleyh gak!!

p/s:
asal hensem je pelakon sme aku nak..haha..tpi aku ske watak die snrnye..ngeh3x=p
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